Uprooting previous pain I realize is a good thing. Because what I once covered up and pretended wasn’t there just led be to be dysfunctional in the way I thought, acted and made decisions. Now its coming back to the surface, I can deal with it, scrub the wound and let it heal properly. The BEST part about a wound healing properly… there is rarely ever a bad scar to remind you it was ever there. And if there is a scar that remains visible, it just makes me thankful it wasn’t sooo much worse.
“God take this pain I’m feeling and help me to deal with it and let it go. Help me to see it clearly and not hide it. Open my eyes to every part of my life it has been touched and affected so you can help restore every nook and cranny of my broken heart. Its not easy. There are moments I’m fine and moments it just hurts so bad all over again. I don’t know how I let it be this awful to begin with.
Teach me to distain evil. Teach me to reject sin. Give me wisdom to know how to deal with situations in a respectful manner. Give me wisdom to know when to listen and when to speak. I ask you continue to remove these temptations from my life that are so wicked. I don’t want them, I don’t want to be defined by them. I don’t want others to define you by them. I want to be your living example. That others SEE YOU through my life. God please use me! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE use me!”