I hate when he makes me feel about this big.
It makes me feel like days like yesterday with B were real; and that I really can move on and be happy with someone like that. Someone who might also have drama following behind them, but at least they care. Care about what I care about, care about where I want to go and the good I want to hep people find. Care that I have a pure heart from God and I want to do His will and His work to the best that my gifts, talents and abilities will allow.
I love him. But he still hurts me.