i’m sorry i can’t be there more for you, the way you want me to be… i just can’t do it.. i’m sorry…. i got to say everything i wanted to say tonight… y do i feel so sad.. and heartbroken… like its all over…. thats just how i’m feeling right now… it’ll be better in a few days. i know it. it always is. *sigh* why does everything have to be hard? why can’t i just have it both ways? why not?