ok i guess i’ve just been really stupid lately…..
i’ve been holding on to something i should have let go a long time ago…. and now tonight i realize how much it really took out of me… the truth came out and i just don’t realize i was being so niave like OMG it just frustrates me now….. i feel hurt but not so much its kinda like i totally set myself up all over again! i’m just stupid!! its just like whatever now… i dunno wat i was expecting or wat i was waiting for like i knew nothin would ever happen again but subconsciously i was just thnkin maybe one more time… if i could beat myself up right now i would, i really would!!!! but watever, just watever, i can’t go back now and i guess i don’t want to since it meant nothing to begin with…..